This journey is full of ups and downs, just when you think you have cracked it, found a way to keep moving, keep smiling. A word, a situation, a feeling makes me feel like I’m back to the beginning finding a way through.  Its been months of feeling good, feeling hopeful and boom, here I am again, hit by waves of sadness and loss. Who do I talk to, they are gone, who can I relate to? who can relate to me?  who can understand?  There are people in my life who have lost a parent, lost a friend, lost a sibling, lost a relationship, but how do I deal…